Life Chat: I'm a Grown A$$ Woman
By the time this posts it will be my 28th birthday. TWENTY. EIGHTH. BIRTHDAY. I am so excited and a little scared to be approaching another year in life. With every birthday I try to sum up the lessons that the previous age has taught me so I can begin the new age with a clean slate.
Age sixteen has taught me that from tragedy comes great strength, I lost my mom that year.
Age Eighteen taught me that life will not get easier as I get older, it's time to really be an adult. I graduated high school that year.
Age Twenty-One has taught me that heartbreak doesn't last always and that I am responsible for my well being and my dreams. I had a horrible break up and was in college trying to figure out what I wanted to do with my life.
The rest of my twenties came with two college degrees, student loan payments, a love affair with wine anda decrease in friends and family members. It came with lot's of dates, situationships and finally a guy worth my time. It has taught me that I have a voice to embrace, that my opinions matter, my feelings are valid. My dreams are possible as hell.
Age Twenty-Seven has taught me that I'M A GROWN ASS WOMAN. Beyonce said it best:
It took a while, now I understand just where I'm going
I know the world and I know who I am
'Bout time I show it.
I'm a grown woman
I can do whatever I want.
I entered into my own. I'm discovering the love and acceptance of my body and myself as a whole. I learned that it's OK the not be sure of my future. I learned that life is about balancing the many plates that you carry and that it will be a struggle before you become successful. I learned to stop giving a fuck about people's opinions to live my life on my own terms. I learned not to be ashamed of expressing myself whether it's through my ever changing hairstyles or through a blog post. I learned that it's OK to be sexual and sensual with my lover or by my damn self.
I'm learning that it's OK to not be sure about children or marriage. I also learned that relationships aren't fairy tales, they're A LOT of hard work and it will not get an easier, but if you love the person you're with, the hard times are worth it. I learned the hard lesson that not all your friends want the best for you, those are the friends who you have to watch out for or exit out of your life. But for those friends who's loyalty or intentions you don't have to question, keep them around.
Overall twenty-seven was my awakening. I tapped into that inner power that we as women possess. I was no longer afraid to be me, as imperfect I am. My depression was a major part of my awakening, I no longer will allow myself to get so low that I turn into someone unhappy and lifeless or to cut off the friends who love me the most and who have your back. I learned that I control my own destiny.
I'm not sure of the lessons that twenty-eight will teach me, but I embrace them with an open mind and heart. I plan on embracing this new phase in my life unapologetically and to SLAY while doing it! I am no longer that little girl or shy young woman afraid to be who she is in a world full of the opinions and views of others. I AM NOT PERFECT.
Look out world! Here comes a grown ass woman.
Twenty-eight, show me what you got.