My Life in 2016 (Yearly Wrap Up)
Where did this year go? As I write this on my iPhone staring at the sun rise, I can't help but reflect back on this year.
2016 for me was a year of awakening. It has been a year of drastic change.
Where to begin? Well, the obvious is that once again, I'm ending the year single. I giggle about this now, but I've come to an amazing revelation that I will share later. I do not have anything bad to say about my ex, I wish him the best in his life moving forward.
Now that that's out the way.
This year I ventured into a new project when it came to building my brand. I ventured into YouTube (you can watch some of my vids in the "Life Vids" section above). Though my subscribers aren't in the millions, Chile I haven't even hit 30 yet, but I found it to be a new way to connect with you. I love the recording and editing process and don't plan on stopping going into 2017.
This blog has been neglected. I admit it and I've been ashamed of it. I've put so much effort into upgrading and writing content, but my passion for it began to fade this year. My goal is to fight for this blog, I don't want to let you as my readers and friends down. I can't give up on this blog.
Besides the ups and downs I've experienced this year, 2016 has been the year of spiritual breakthroughs for me.
After my break up, I went through another trial of depression. I was totally broken and my soul was so weary. I wasn't depressed enough to attempt suicide again, but depressed and broken enough to swear off love forever. It was at my weakest moment, that I made the best decision I've ever made, I gave my life back to Christ and embraced practicing celibacy.
By God's grace and mercy my life has been amazing.
My life has more purpose now. I have never felt more free and more loved. My goal going into 2017 is to continue building my relationship with God. I'm not the perfect Christian, but I'm committed to God and his promises. I also want to find a church home to fellowship and grow in.
I've seen lots of friends and associates disappear this year and I'm not even questioning if. God has blessed me enough to keep the right people in my life. So to Brittany, Shariyka, Lamoi, Tarrah, Soleil, Jackie, Lessy, Vanity, and my blogging sisters (If I forgot your name, blame it on my mind and not my heart) I appreciate all you Queens for sticking by me, giving me advice, embracing and encouraging my new lifestyle change. I know I'm not the perfect friend and sister to you all, but I am committed to doing my best this year and every year. I love and appreciate you all.
I don't plan on dating this year (God may have other plans). The single life has taught me so much about myself. I'm learning about who I am and why some, if not all, my relationships have failed. I even gave up fighting on a situation with a good guy who was honest to tell me that he can't love me. As much as that hurt, I'm grateful that I was strong enough to accept that rejection and move on. I don't want to continue settling for someone out of fear of loneliness. I want God to write my love story. Along with the decision to not date, as I've mentioned earlier, I am celibate. And I mean for real celibate. I do not plan on having sex until marriage and not even kiss a guy on the lips. Some may say that's a little extreme, but I know myself. I want to experience those things with my husband. Someone who cannot easily walk away. Someone who I am committed to and who is the same for me. I don't know when God will bless me with a mate, but my focus is not on that right now. Celibacy hasn't been easy. But it has given me clarity and self worth. It's also an excellent f**k Boy repellant.
My relationship with my sister has greatly improved this year. We're the closest we've ever been. She's been supportive of my commitment to God. She's been my ride or die. We even said we loved each other for the first time in what seems like forever! We say it daily now. I'm grateful to God for this beautiful blessing. I just pray going into 2017 that we continue to grow together.
Kylah, my beautiful niece continues to amaze me. Can't believe she's going to be 4 in April. My best friend Brittany has made me a God Mom! My doll of a God daughter is named Brielle and I love her. My bestie's older daughters are also growing beautifully and make me proud to be an aunt, Ijona and Ariyana, I love you.
I can't say that cliche saying "new year, new me". I believe I'll be the same me, just better. I'm ready for whatever 2017 throws my way. With God, my family, and friends on my side, I can't do nothing else but win.
I want to personally thank each and every one of you that visits this blog, watched the YouTube videos, retweet, hit me on IG and Snapchat. I couldn't have gotten this far without your constant love and loyalty. I thank you all from the bottom of my heart. I can't wait to see where this blog goes in 2017 and I pray that you continue to ride this ride with me.
Happy New Year and God Bless!